Rocks and sand

Recently we celebrated the start of another new year. People often use this time as a chance to reflect on the year that has been (2016), and to dream about the year to come (2017). I saw one blog post that someone had written about their biggest fear for 2017 - that nothing was going to change and everything would stay as it had been, rather than the new year bringing the hoped-for fresh start. However, whilst I sympathise with the sentiment, as I have been reflecting, I have come to the opposite conclusion - that for me, one of my biggest fears for 2017, is knowing that lots of things ARE about to change (some of which have already started shifting at the end of 2016).

Since leaving home for University, I have moved around a lot and lived in a number of different towns/cities, in a number of different houses within those places, been part of a number of different churches and made a number of amazing friends. Whilst many elements of this have been good, it has also made me anxious to settle somewhere (probably the nesting instinct coming out!) And indeed, I have now lived in my current town (and been in my current job) for longer than any of the other previous places I have lived (other than the places where I grew up). My current job is permanent (at least, for as long as they want to keep me!), and I own a house, both of which add to the illusion of greater permanence. The problem with this, is that whilst I am not necessary completely satisfied with everything about where I am right now, I also find that I have unknowingly let myself become comfortable here, finding security in the (mostly) predictable nature of things around me.

But it is only an illusion of security, sinking sand if you like. Jesus told a story about two men, one of whom built a house on a rock and one of whom built a house on the sand. Unsurprisingly, when the storms came the house on the sand fell (there are many great kids songs about this, with amazing actions and sound effects!), but the house on the firm foundation of the rock continued to stand firm. The more I get to know Jesus, the more I come to know that he didn't just tell us things for the sake of it, to just fill the time with some nice stories to make us feel better, and he didn't tell us things in order to make our lives harder or boring. He actually told us things in order that we really might have life in all its fullness. When the storms aren't around, the sand actually looks like a pretty good location to build a house - why go to all the bother of building a firm foundation, the house on the sand looks just fine from the outside. The problem is only evident when the storms come (and they do come). If we build our lives on things of this earth, even though they may look good, and stable, they are only fleeting and we find that if we have built our house there, it will eventually fall into ruin - what happens if you lose that job? Or end that relationship?  Or I lose the ability to do certain things that I used to love? What then?

But there is good news. Jesus says that if we build our house (our lives) on the rock, then even when the storms come, we will not be shaken. But what is this rock? Well, the God that I know and believe in, claims to be that rock. He is the only one who is unchanging in this world of change, my rock, the only firm foundation. His attributes and character also never change: He is always love; He is always good, and we can always depend upon Him. God wants us to depend on Him in this way, not to kill our fun or make life hard, but actually to protect us, that we might still be able to stand even in a world full of uncertainty and change; He wants us to live lives that are solid, lives of integrity, lives that don't get blown this way and that with the changing seasons. But we don't do this because we've got everything all figured out - no, it's because we're depending on the rock, the reason we can stand firm.

The process of learning this lesson in practice is not proving to be an easy one, but in the long run our lives will be better for it if we do. In 2017, a year promising to be full of change, I want to choose not to live in fear any more, but I want to turn and find my security in God my rock. He will never let me down, and with my life built on Him, I will never be shaken.

This is a song that has been encouraging me a lot lately:

Jon Guerra - Wherever you are

Verse:

You can take the train or you can take the car,
You can travel the world but not too get too far.

You are always just where you are.

Why don’t you wanna be where you are?

I can see you’re sad, I can see you’re down

You think you’re lost and cannot be found

Love will find you just where you are

Why don’t you wanna be where you are?

Chorus:

Wherever you go, he is there

No matter the steep hill or stair

He doesn’t leave you alone with your prayers 

He is as close to you friend

As your own heart beat or breath

Believe you are loved

And that he is enough

For whatever you’re in

You know that he’s been

Wherever you are

Verse 2:

When you’re head is spinning and your life’s a race

When you try so hard but you get last place

Sometimes you are just where you are

Love doesn’t leave you where you are

Bridge:

There is no height, there is no distance

That can separate your heart from his

He knows exactly where you’ve been

And he loves you

Child he loves you

So come out, come out, come out wherever you are